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Horrible March 18, 2010

Posted by Natasha in Uncategorized.

I am a horrible person.

I just worked out that at least 20 babies will have either been born since mid last year, or in the next 6 months, to friends and colleagues. And I don’t know that many people.

And I can’t find a shred of true happiness for any of them.



1. jill - March 19, 2010

I can completely empathize :/ It sucks. *hug*

2. Me - March 19, 2010

You’re not horrible, what you’re feeling or not feeling is actually totally natural honey, don’t beat yourself up about it.


3. Me - March 21, 2010

How are you feeling hon? I hope you’ve managed to move past the darkness…..


4. Heather - March 22, 2010

Preach it! It’s hard. Ugh.

5. Myndi - March 22, 2010

No matter what, don’t beat yourself up about it. We all feel this way, and it is especially hard after a loss. A friend of mine was 2 weeks behind my due date and since my loss at 12 weeks, I haven’t been able to see or talk to her. I just can’t. My SIL is due in May and I just can’t bear to so much as hear her name. It makes me feel awful, but right now it is my truth. I’m entitled to spare myself the pain, and it’s ok that you can’t find joy for them right now. You will eventually.

6. Marisa - March 23, 2010

Please don’t be hard on yourself. You’re not horrible!!!!!


7. tasivfer - March 23, 2010

I can relate. 😦 I had a miscarriage in December, and I really have to practise my smiles – I have two friends due the day after I would have been do, so being happy for their progress just makes me feel so left behind and depressed.

8. pandabox33 - March 23, 2010

I have felt like this before. I wanted to scream my head out. I just allowed myself to feel it for a while and it became less hard to fake the joy. Eventually I became a bit happier for them. You’re not horrible, it’s okay to be sad or angry or disappointed or envious…you’re human.

9. Jennifer - March 23, 2010

I don’t think it’s horrible…I think it’s real. We all feel this way at one time or another. It is hard and it sucks! Thanks for being real!

ICLW #28

10. liddy - March 24, 2010

You are not horrible. Say what you feel.

Or in the words of Dr. Seuss, “Be who you are, say what you feel, because those who matter don’t mind, and those who mind don’t matter.”

Liddy from
No. 144: the unfair struggle (male-factor, speedskating, life)

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