Not a good day to play the ‘should have been’s March 24, 2010
Posted by Natasha in Uncategorized.trackback
I have had a shitty month at work. I got royally screwed again when my awesome teaching partner had to move to fill a vacancy that they didn’t want to fill externally (because why would you replace someone who resigned??). I got left with a complete leech of a teaching partner. This woman is so lazy and incompetent that she expects me to do all of her work for her. She is a top of the range leading teacher, but apparently that doesn’t actually mean she’s any good.
I got Jack of it, applied for another job, interviewed, and got the knock back this morning. It went to an assistant principal who is moving from interstate.
This in itself doesn’t bother me. I know that among a different field of applicants, the situation would be different, and I would probably have gotten it. I’ve only been at this gig 4.25 years, fair enough that experience should win.
The thing that shits me is that now on stuck with this idiot woman.
And sitting on the couch, I started thinking.
This shouldn’t matter. This should be my last term in that hell hole before maternity leave.
Then I realised, that if our first cycle has worked, I should be about 35 weeks. I should be going on maternity leave right now.
All My Peccadilloes... 
Oh honey, I do the “should of been” thinking regularly as well and it hurts like an echidna being dragged down your bare back.
You have my sympathy, my thoughts and big squishy hugs from a storm battered Perth, my friend!
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Hey Tashish
It is so frustrating to be constantly working towards this dream and not getting it. How crappy that you have to be at work when things are so difficult and you’d much rather be at home waiting for a bub to arrive. I know this is really hard to go through and I hope you have success with a future cycle.
I’m a fellow Aussie also!
take care
I am a big “should of been” girl! I hated it but it happens! I wish you the best of luck!
Happy ICLW! 🙂
I think that we all do that “should of been” thinking at one point or another. Sorry that this month has been a crappy one, just keep your chin up I’m sure that things will start looking up for you soon.
ICLW #33
It is so hard, the should have beens. And it can hit out of nowhere.
You are in my thoughts.
ps I have never met anyone with kleinefelters syndrome but I am so interested because my son – my starbaby – had it too. No-one I knew had ever heard of it.
I will be praying for you and your family xxx
I’m sorry it’s been such a rough month. Those moments when you think about what should have been are always particularly rough. {{{Hugs}}}
~ICLW #31
I’m so sorry that you’re having a rough go of it at work. I never understand that entire, “I’ve been a teacher for 73 years so I can do absolutely nothing, make a lot more money than everyone else and have no worries about losing my job,” attitude. So horrible!
Sorry, too, for the milestone. It’s definitely hard not to think about those things. I hope things look up for you soon! Best of luck!
iclw
I just had a conversation with my bright and beautiful 10-year old daughter who has been partnered with a smart, bossy, credit-claiming, nose-picking boy for a 3-week science project. He elbows her out of the way and doesn’t let her make any decisions or findings of her own. Life is so unfair.
I hope that your situation at work improves.
Lisa (ICLW #15 Your Great Life